About Me — Jatin Kushwaha
I am just 2.5 years old
I’ve seen the toughest phase of my life…a time that felt like it had come only to take my life away. There were moments when I even tried to end my life, but every time, for some reason, I survived. Then one day, I made a vow — either I would bring my life back on track, or I would die trying. I chose to live.
During that period, I began practicing meditation. Gradually, I developed a deep attraction toward chanting the word “Om.” That simple sound began awakening a curiosity within me… a desire to understand everything: water, fire, air, earth, mountains, plants, the sun, the moon, planets, living and non-living things.
My mind started filling with countless questions. Some of them found their answers in deep meditation, while for others…. I searched through books, libraries and social media. My research on my own self began to expand.
Slowly, I gave up eating non-vegetarian food. I realized that consuming something born out of the killing and suffering of another being meant absorbing that pain and negative energy into myself. Those vibrations were affecting my mind, wrapping my pure thoughts in layers of darkness.
Since I had begun walking the path of meditation, any source of negative energy felt like an obstacle. I even sought an answer from within to the question — “Is egg vegetarian or non-vegetarian?” Read here [link].
That question became like a sacred fire inside me, slowly burning away my ignorance.
Then came a day — Guru Purnima.
That day became the turning point of my life. I had gone to Mathura-Vrindavan for the Govardhan Parikrama. During the journey, while sitting in front of the Indra Dev Temple, I made a solemn vow: I would give up smoking, alcohol, ganja, bhang — everything. And one by one, I offered them all as if I were offering my very head into a sacred fire.
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When I returned home with the blessings of the Divine, it felt as though every bad habit had left me. My body and mind were filled with a new enthusiasm and energy… as if every single cell of my being had awakened with divine excitement!
It felt like Indra Dev himself had blessed me. After that, my meditation became deeper, and my questions more profound. My entire lifestyle transformed….
Waking up early, taking a bath, lighting a lamp, praying, meditating, and going for a morning walk. As time passed, I began to gain control over both my body and my mind. Yet, I couldn’t understand what was happening within me nor could I explain it to anyone. No one would believe me anyway.
How could I make someone understand that a demon was now developing divine qualities?
After that day, everything started feeling different. I began to sense even my breath… as if it was trying to tell me something. Every morning, when I opened my eyes to the first rays of the sun, it felt as though my soul was being reborn. Each day became a new birth, every moment a new beginning. I began to feel like a child again — free from burdens, pretenses, and fears.
That’s when I realized — I’m not 31 years old; I’m just two and half years old.
These are the years of my soul’s new life… the time when I truly began to live.
Now I am growing again, and it’s just the beginning. Every day feels like a new layer of life unfolding, a deeper rhythm of energy moving through me.
I want to thank my childhood friend Pujesh
Whose insights on flowing energy opened my eyes to dimensions I had never noticed before.
His words helped me understand that life is not just to be lived — it is to be felt, to be sensed, to flow with.
And as I feel this energy expanding within me, I realize… this journey has no final destination. It is endless, mysterious, and alive. Each moment now is a step into the unknown and yet, I am not afraid.
Because this… this is only the beginning.
